I know this will come as a surprise to many of you but Speaking Autism will be shutting down at the end of the month.
It has been almost five years now (4 years, 9 months and 13 days actually) since I created Speaking Autism back in April 2012. When I started, I had a very specific vision for SA and I worked extremely hard to achieve that goal. Achieve it I did, and then some.
In the months that followed I became a certified life coach, specializing in coaching parents of children with special needs; I became a special education consultant and public speaker on transition planning. Speaking Autism took off in a direction I never even dreamed of.
So what happened that has made me want to shut down a website that has grown so much in the last few years? Well, there isn’t just one thing that stands out. It’s a combination of many things that collectively have made my decision clearer; not easier though, just more clear.
What happens behind the scenes is real life and the reality is, the more time I spent on my work and on the computer, the more challenging home life became with my son. His needs as he is getting older and maturing into an adult are more challenging. I always thought things would get easier as he would get older but I was wrong. I find it more difficult to parent him now as opposed to when he was 8 or 13 years old.
I can’t predict the future and yet I have to plan today for my son’s tomorrow. This can be an overwhelming and frightening feeling. Still, every day I plan because he too deserves happiness and opportunities and unless I have an action plan for him, nobody will do it on his behalf. Nobody – just me.
So, the more SA grew, so did the workload, commitments and deadlines. The more time I invest in SA, the less time I have to tend to my son’s needs. There are so many things that need to be taken care of for my son at this stage in his life ( he’s 17) and I am the only one who can do that for him because he cannot do it for himself.
The more time I spend behind the computer and online, the less time I am spending in the present moment with the real world surrounding me.
Another reason I am shutting down Speaking Autism is because I no longer feel comfortable sharing my journey without feeling I am violating my son’s privacy and regardless how well SA is doing, his rights and feelings are paramount. I think this is the most important factor in my decision making.
We can have it all in life, just not at the same time. Life is about balance and making choices and doing what is best for yourself and your loved ones. Every day is an opportunity to learn and as we learn we grow and when we grow we let go of things that no longer serve us a purpose or need. We’ve acquired our knowledge and move on to learn new things. Shutting the door in one area doesn’t mean it’s a failure. Shutting the door means you are allowing yourself the opportunity for another door to open. You need to let go, free your hands so they are ready to receive what is coming next.
This is how I feel at this moment. I feel I have grown so much with Speaking Autism and I’ve brought it to a place I can be very proud of. I think I’ve done all that I can with SA and it’s time for me to move on.
I’ve given this months and months of thought and I am now ready to let go so I can receive the new opportunities that I know are waiting for me.
I want to thank every one of you who have been by my side and who have been on this journey with me from the beginning, middle and end. You have been the greatest followers and I am privileged and honored to have had your support and love.
If anyone has autism/special education related questions, you can always email me at firstname.lastname@example.org
From the bottom of my heart, thank you for being here.
Wishing you all a wonderful journey.
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